Posts Tagged ‘awesome’

Well, I never

Saturday, August 14th, 2010

I have always refused to live with anyone I wasn’t related to by blood or marriage. Until now. Now, I live in a house with five other people plus two NGOs.

Until I started this trip, I had never hailed a taxi. Then, last month, I took more cabs than I had ever before, cumulatively, most of which I flagged down myself.

And then there are the other new modes of transportation: mototaxis, collectivos, chicken buses, in town hitch hiking, and of course, mountain bikes.

Also on the list of nevers, I’ve been making myself do things that terrify me. The other night, a couple of my house mates had a dinner party and one poked her head in to invite me while I was working. Rather than take advantage of the work excuse, I got to a reasonable stopping point for the night and I joined them. All 11 of them. None of whom I’d known for more than a day.

Last night I went to a meeting for volunteers at El Nahual, where I decided to volunteer after the dinner party (pretty much everyone there volunteers at El Nahual). The big scary walking into an unknown group of people, yeah, not so scary, or the people unknown, for the most part, it turned out. I had met most of them at the dinner party. Then we all went out for Callum’s going away night, complete with rum smoothies and shisha.

Tonight I had a choice between salsa class (the almost-guaranteed-look-silly-in-front-of-people-you-know-option) and watch a movie at the school (the safe option). I nearly took the safe option, but at the last minute joined everyone for salsa. While I found the idea terrifying, the room was so small, and like I’ve said before, most people have such a strong focus on themselves, so no one notices anyone else until you run into each other. I had times where I did well, and times where I had no idea what was going on.

And I’m learning to bargain. I hate it. But it’s part of the culture, and I’ve yet to succeed with the whole arguing with reality thing. I’m taking it in baby steps. First I would just stand there and think. Often that’s enough to get a price drop and I don’t have to actually do/say anything. I’ve started asking for a slightly lower price sometimes. I’m still getting comfortable with the idea. When six red bananas cost $0.25, I don’t see the point of arguing.

There’s a karaoke party benefit thing for the school. I have no idea how I’m going to handle that, but I said I’d go. So, this one falls under being open to the experience. Vee shall see…

What’s the one ‘never’ you’d like to challenge yourself on?

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Awesome!

Sunday, May 23rd, 2010

It’s really easy to forget all the amazing accomplishments we have made. So, now, I’m keeping a list.

It’s also really easy to negate our accomplishments. So, yeah, now I’m keeping a list. Something I can look at when I’m feeling like I’ve never done anything really… (fill in the blank here).

All of this came about because I follow Elizabeth Potts Weinstein on Twitter. Elizabeth retweeted something Catherine Caine posted about her own blog post and also wrote a post of her own. Follow the links, but the posts are all about declaring our awesomeness.

I retweeted Elizabeth’s retweet, and Catherine called me out on not having told her how awesome I am. So, I did.

It’s funny, considering how Twitter gets panned as a useless distraction (which it can be), I’ve had it be a conduit for change in my life more than once recently. It’s not the tool, but how you use it. (Go ahead, leave your mind in the gutter, it’s your mind).

My list (this will continue to grow):

I have inexhaustible patience with children!

I am über smart! (I’m in Mensa)

I am a great writer!

I knit clothes that people think I bought (self-taught), sewing too!

I’m in the process of getting rid of almost everything I own and traveling the world!

Even when I’m scared I keep going!

I care deeply about my friends, family, and the world at large!

I am a kick-ass cook!

I can get *anything* to grow!

I’ve lived in Sweden, Mexico, as well as several places in the US!

In addition to English, I speak Swedish, Spanish, and have started learning Russian!

I can teach anyone how to do anything, even if I’m learning right along with them!

I am amazingly creative, in art, but also in how I solve problems!

I am more determined than anyone has ever realized!

I give great hugs!

I left a marriage that was killing my soul!

I drove from Dallas to NYC and back, alone!

I can stop wayward children (and some adults) in their tracks with a look!

I can read upside down!

I am a quick study!

I connect information in ways other people don’t immediately see!

Letting people know how amazing we think we are at something can be scary. Once, people figure out how smart I am, it can effect the way they act around me, like they’re afraid I’ll think they’re dumb. So, I kept the people who know I’m in Mensa to a minimum. But, really, other people’s insecurities are their problem.

So there.

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