Truth and Trust, Ouch
October 10th, 2010

I’ve been hiding. Not from you, but from writing this post. From following through on something important to me and who and how I am. Yes… that. Sigh.

Trust

Last week, Lisa tweeted something that struck me, almost physically, with its power:

I knew I needed to sit with it. Shiva it up some. Really let this one come from those hidden recesses that gather dust while you go about your day: work, shop, cook, sleep.

At first, nothing. I’m happy with where I am with my not-yet-a-business sits. I’m making progress, even if only I can see it. I am, in fact, really trusting myself on this one.

And Truth

And so, more Shiva Nata, more sitting with the Question. And then a realization, one I had felt coming since before I left for Mexico, but had pushed aside. I wasn’t ready, and I still don’t like it.

I need to let go of a relationship. Well, part of one. If that’s possible, and I hope it is. A significant part of me believes that an ex will realize his mistake and we will get back together, and travel together, and live happily ever after. Sigh. Yeah. I know. My own grown up fairy tale.

Getting Beyond the Ouch

The problem with fairy tales? They keep us from enjoying reality. Too much of what *could* be and not nearly enough of what is. So, in addition to being out in the world, I am now opening up to the possibility of new and more and unknown. Because the safety of the story in my head is hurting me more than risking my heart ever could.

Lisa turned her question into a #6monthchallenge where most people seem to be using it for business or blog purposes. And I guess this is a blog purpose, but more than that, it’s time to rescue my own damn self. More meeting new people, more putting myself in new situations, more being open to possibility. Because I do trust myself, and the universe, and in fact, serendipity.

What would you do, if you truly trusted yourself? Lisa and I both want to know.

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In the comments:

We’re being open here, sharing and saying things we don’t always say out loud.What helps: Sharing your stories and Ideas. Cheering and telling what works/worked for you. What hurts: shoulds, harshness, and such. (I used to teach first grade, I can’t help it.)

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  • http://twitter.com/RebellionPress Davina—Rebel Mom

    You are of the wonderful world Katherine and you have finally stepped into it—to seek, to enjoy, to cry, to live. I love you.
    Trust took me to Denver, trust took me back to Dallas. Trust helps me shed worries and fears. You know for the first time in my life since I don't wake up with anxiety and night tremors anymore? The letting go of started pre-Denver and has become more rooted post Denver. Granted Buddha and the universe and little to dow ith it. :-) And dinosaurs, poetry, textiles, good food, and butterflies.

  • http://thesocialcaterpillar.com/ Kathryn Hunter

    I've pretty much decided to take some time every week to sit this this question. Every time I read it, my heart jumps a little, and I know I'm not done with it.

    You don't know how happy it makes me to hear how well you're doing. Looking forward to seeing your lovely face in March.

  • Anonymous

    Amazing post by my friend, teacher and world traveler. Whne was the last time you truly lived? http://www.thesocialcaterpillar.com/blog/truth-and-trust-ouch/

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  • http://lisa-unmasked.com Lisa MB

    Written in it's perfect time, Katherine. :)

    I am glad the question resonated with you. I admire you for the time you've taken to really sit with it. And I applaud your courage to “rescue” yourself by putting yourself “out there” even more.

    As I wind down day 10 of this challenge, you've given me much more to think about. And for that, I am most grateful.

  • http://completeflake.com/ LaVonne Ellis

    I had to let go of a relationship recently in order to move forward with my business and my life. I thought I'd be sad about it or feel guilty, but all I feel is free. Negative energy was draining my life away. Now, I have the energy and optimism to believe it's possible to do this. Yay!

  • http://thesocialcaterpillar.com/ Kathryn Hunter

    I've had to let go of a couple of friendships that were negative and keeping me from growing in ways that I both wanted and needed. So difficult.

  • http://thesocialcaterpillar.com/ Kathryn Hunter

    Thank you so much, Lisa. I'm pretty sure you have changed the way I look at my life. Really, there aren't words.

  • http://CouchSurfingOri.com/ Couchsurfing Ori

    Great post. Great fairytale too…. it's my style anyways, travel the world and live happily ever after. Sounds like your adventures have been quite amazing lately. I'm traveling stateside, and am envious. You've really come a long way since your very 1st blog post… back in the day, when people actually would/could believe that you were shy. Waiting on other people can be deadly to living… you're traveling the world, and that sounds like a great place to meet other people who travel the world. Make sure you're adventuring for you, not for someone else. From reading, sounds like you're doing it for you, and that it's rewarding beyond bounds. Smart & adventurous girl like you will probably find that guy in no time. On manifestation, one good tip is to be pretty damn specific… those small but important details make a difference :)

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